Being Marica

Dear CoVid19 Country Lock-down diary - Day 7 She's ugly from heart to foot.  She's a virus. All  surfaces from her bitterness into her ever insecurities, making its way up to her face which can't be reclaimed.   An ugliness recalled then but by far she's even uglier now. She seeks headlines at all expense, building on a back-foot and on her back side of light.  She's a virus.  One that can't really be, be seen or be accepted by nature of  humanly things. Toxic herself, she has no other grip than to be ugly, seeking self approval from numbers and through her ugly narrative.   She's a virus at the core of her green heart finding a way to a place only she desires. Knowing little  meaning of respect or decency except for her virus self.  ( Covid1920 and the virus she comes as - by marica) signing out :) M

Dear CoVid19 Country Lock-down diary - Day 6 I'm grateful. signing off M

Dear CoVid19 Country Lock-down diary - Day 5 I woke up reflective but relatively OK with the state of things. I enjoyed some music, which as you know, for me is another of my love languages.. and universally a tool known to connect people. I have been consuming the news and updates at intervals instead of listening attentively throughout the day. It's just easier for me this way. I get to understand where things are without becoming too overcome or overwhelmed by the status of this virus with its gross impact.  I got to do a few things and, while I am clear about whose opinions I listen to these days, I then received a call from a significant person whose opinion matters to me. Post the conversation I felt, what if -   even with money and access, just what if we no longer have supplies because of global shortages? What if "life" decides money isn't the deciding factor any longer? Anyway all these questions. Let's just pray and work howe...

Dear CoVid19 Country Lock-down diary - Day 4 A good day. Good energy, right team. Heart's in right place. Let's see. Signing off M

  Dear CoVid19 Country Lock-down diary -Day 3 All in all it's been a really good day. Late yesterday I came to some firm decisions, based on where society is and which I briefly discussed with my colleague Jimmy a few weeks ago, which now I will pursue over a period of time with necessary transitions.  But for now, it's all business mindset as normal. I was a bit worried by a headline of Africa being the last in line on global supplies of ventilators. It momentarily took my breath away. But then I remembered what we are pretty used to as a Nation and as a Continent. We are good at improvising and with that we should find a way to innovate till things ease up all round and we're  no longer compromised.  I also took a long part of today to think about specific things. You'll recall me seeing these days as an opportune time for working on ourselves till we're let out of self isolation. I've suggested the same to  people I truly value and care about. I ...

Dear CoVid19 Country Lock-down diary - Day 2 Today I awoke to the harsh reality of things. I didn't feel, perhaps like I subtly did yesterday, that this was simply our turn to join in on a global, borderless and disregarding pandemic. I got up reminded of my beliefs spiritually and make no mistake, while I am vocal of my beliefs, I hold no polarized views on religious choices. That's the stuff that generally causes all the issues in the world so I am not about to engage any more triggers. Further, how does any of that matter in a time when every humanbeing is being challenged personally and is equally called to play a part in this fight to save humanity? We're all on the same side for once. Such a high price to pay to get us to this point and perhaps that's where some of my anger felt today stems from. Today I felt a few things but mostly I felt intense anger combined with hurt by the reality of things. This lock-down together with all the consequences had ...

Dear CoVid19 Country Lock-down diary - Day 1 Today is, well, like any other day. A bit restricted, a bit challenged, a bit busy. All in all it's been eerily silent. As if you could feel the silence, concern and sadness. Or as if you could feel the prayer. Today is officially South Africa's National Day of Prayer which for me, is more important than any other wants for this day even if I, like you too, am challenged by my lack in humanly wants and needs. At some stage the "flesh" has to take the backseat. I started with some remote work, knew the date to be significant for various reasons and proceeded to work interested in no more or less than my work at hand. Something came to mind and I read a bit of Elanor Roosevelt's life. A brief overview. The strange thing is, ordinarily I'd love to be indoors and with no desire to be out but today, today was subtly rebellious on my part. I would not break the rules for any reason since I value the well-being...